The Dragon

Lost, alone and hurting. Wanting so much to find a love. A true love. No wait... a SOUL MATE for life. Then I meet him...can this be true or is my mind playing tricks once again. We give it a shot. Such a strong connection. Happy times, sad times, loving times and the one we all dislike...ill mannered times. Then "I" give up too easy...I call it off for reasons we both agree on. In which the Little Princess was right to begin with. For reasons of her concern for good of her family.

The years past by with many so called loves coming and going. But do not care to mention...for none compare to The Dragon. Within these years...he visited me in dreams, mental times of need and spiritually standing by my bed occasionally at night.

Fate once again comes to knock. Do I dare tread there again...? So much wanting to...but so afraid. Part of me ready to give whole heartily again. What would his reaction be?..."It stands to reason if it does not work the first time it will not the second" So I slam the wall up and walk away...If it doesn't feel comfortable, get away before you get hurt again.

I try another round with others. But fail as always. Too many want their cake and eat it too. And with each that fail...somehow The Dragons saying's of the past somehow intertwine.

Then fate...yet one LAST time with The Dragon comes again. From help from his once Little Princess to now a Dragoness herself with her own lair, tells The Dragon..."Just because it didn't work the first time, don't mean it can't work the second time. There was a reason it did not work the first time." So now i wait to see just where the road leads with The Dragon this Last time...

I have always loved you. Truly and deeply never really stopped. Just got childish and selfish in the past. And I have regretted it ever since. Too scared the second time and afraid and felt like The Dragon was shunning me. And maybe he was.

And now the third time has come. Feelings are resurfacing once again. Harder and stronger than before. I have re-fallen in love again with The Dragon. How do i know that it is love and not lust? Easy...lust does not cause the fear of being hurt and let down. Then why do I bother to try...because a chance never taken is a possibility never birthed.

The time we share when we are together is precious to me. At times I feel he wants it again also. But I'm not for certain...so...I take day by day, week by week...what will be...will...what won't be...want. But within the very depth of my soul... I hope dearly that The Dragon feels the same...If not...please let me know very soon...for I know you know how I fell My Dearest Dragon.

~ Obsidian~......

I Do Still Love You Very Much

July 11th - July 19th 2004

Should You Leave

Lost in deep thought of your dark side. Growing tired and weary. What are you planning to do next. The thought patterns that no one can reach. Not even those who love you very deeply. We feel something is up. Just don't know what or when. As you know, I do still love you. Even more so now. And I know you still love me too Poohbear. And I don't say that as a mind game to trap you. I truly feel it in your touch. And I hear it in our conversations that we have. Even though you also don't come out and say it. Should you just up and take off, at least say goodbye in a decent way. For I have always wanted to find a true love. To know that in my life before I die... I WAS TRULY LOVED. And you are the one who gave this to me. And even if you do up an take off with harsh words...unless I've

really pissed you off about something...I KNOW you will not really mean it...even though you will do your damnedness to do so. I will always love you. And should you leave, I would hope you will find peace on your journey. And I will also hope that when the gentle breezes blow, the soft rain falls, and the warmth of the sun or fire when you are cold...you will have sweet memories and thoughts of me. But who's to say...and I PRAY...it never comes to this...but should it....for the time being...the time we do have together...

July 25th 2004